im progressing very slow this few days on my gundam..
the main reason is..
and is always the reason im low on self-esteem..
my sweaty palms..
because of this reason..
i am always low on confidence..
and always wondering how people will judge me if they know that i have sweaty palms..
and yes..
very often i received a very negative reaction from people..
when they accidentally touched my hands..
yes..
that is why i dont go touch anyone..
this is really a big discouragement..
especially when im afraid to hold the hands of my loved ones..
and that is why it is very annoying when i need to use my hands to do something..
like my gundam..
hahahaha..
i dont want to ruin them..
so i dont want to touch them when my hands are sweating..
and the sweat never stops..
you will never understand how it feels anyway..
hehehe..
that is why..
i miss her so much..
she was the one that doesnt mind about it..
and in fact..
she likes to hold my hands even when my hands are sweating..
i felt so warm at that time..
maybe that is why i will never forget her..
hmm..
anyway..
im not holding onto anything..
just wish someone will accepts my imperfection like this >.<
my small little private space for me to put in my feelings :) i am honest in everything i said here..be happy always you special one
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