late update again

yes yes yes..
its a late update again..
hahaha..
cause i was so tired yesterday..
slept right away after i got home last night..
hate to have bbq..
always the most exhausting kind of meal to have..
can never enjoy bbq..
never once in my life..
hate it..
but im not living by myself now..
so its fine..
later on..
if im living by myself..
i wouldnt have bbq at all..
argh!
seems like i am giving up on something..
is it someone else?
something else?
or i am just really giving up on myself?
hmm..
anyone can tell me?