Silly me

hi..
it's me again..

okay..
so i broke up with her..
she said she likes someone else..
okay..
i have to let go..

i dont even know how should i feel..
i feel like crying..
can i?

i dont wanna lose like that..
just like that..

i am so silly and childish..
i blocked her everywhere..
facebook, wechat, line.....
i dont wanna see her again..

i shouldn't have started this relationship..
i should have just stay single like what i promised to myself..

can someone just always remind me that i promised not to break this promise again?
can someone always be there to stop me from going too far?

when i asked myself this..
then i realise i am the lonely one..

i will definitely hide myself for some time now..
it's not that she is hard to forget..
but it's more like i cant forgive myself..

i really wish for her to be happy..
but i am not willing to let myself witness that..

okay..
i really am going to cry and sleep now..
everything will be fine..

i dont think anyone is reading this..
so this is the safest place to keep all my feelings in here..
a lonely person here..
looking to explore the big big world..
time will heals everything?