Today

today i am feeling so lazy..
so lazy to do anything..
so lazy to think..

how should i continue with this?

all i need is just someone to be there..
but i guess it isnt that easy right?

when i said someone..
not as in girlfriend or lover..
but just someone who cares..

i have to keep telling myself that everyone has their own life..
and no one will be there for me all the time..
not everyone is a lonely soul like me..

am i being negative?
i have to admit i am negative at this moment..

yeah..
this is what i feel most of the time..
even though it may seem like sometimes i dont like to talk..
but i know the feeling of loneliness when there is no one for you..

is there gonna be this someone to be there for me?
i have no idea..

my energy has long lost since i arrived in Melbourne..
all i have been looking for is that someone that will replenish my energy..
i need that motivation..
what happen to me?

i dont like the me now..
i dont like the me for this 3 years..
i want to be positive like before..
i need to be like my old self..
i know i need to grow up..
i want to be mature..
but i want to feel the freedom as a kid too..
am i being greedy?