1/05/2016

i guess i really do care about her..
i know my feeling is real..
hahahaha..
i am being too sensitive..
i should start to act like i am clueless..
try not too be so sensitive anymore..
maybe i should pretend that i dont know anything..
hahahaha..
i trusted myself too much..
because i was rarely wrong?
maybe..
hahahaha..
i shouldnt bother her anymore..
im only a nuisance in her life..
as long as she is happy..
who cares what happens to me..
i dont care either..
hahahaha..
just a few more months..
then she wont need to see me anymore..
hahahaha..
i guess i am not good at bringing happiness to other people..
i am destined to live by myself..
in loneliness..
the way i want..
4 more months starting today..
not much time left..
i will do whatever i can..
just to see her smile again..
and then..
it will really be last farewell..
it is never gonna be easy for me..
cause i always care too much..
but no regrets..
i promised to treat her nice..
counting down to the day i am leaving everything behind :)