confession ok

you dont even know how i feel..
i dont think you will ever know..
you listen to others more than you listen to me..
you talk to others more than you talk to me..

i tried my best to stay by your side..
and this is what i have been trying to do all this while..
yet you never look to my side..
all those people you talk with..
im thinking..
what am i to you?

i have told you so many times..
i have promised you so many times..
yet i feel like it is never enough..

am i not good enough?
am i not reliable enough?
am i not trustworthy enough?

you are the one who made me walked away every single time..
you never made me feel that you care..
you never made me feel that i am important to you..
i never had those feelings before..
i feel so silly all this while..

i didnt ask anything in return..
but can you please look at me more?

anyway..
a promise is a promise..
i will never walk away anymore..
its up to you to keep me or throw me away..
but this time..
even if you decided to throw me away..
i will still be waiting for you..