feeling

lonely..

i am so lonely..

its such a big world..

but i cant get rid of the loneliness..

is there no one else i can trust?

i can talk to?

i can rely on?

do i have to be alone?

fine..

i will enjoy this feeling of loneliness then..

being alone is to have nothing to pull you down..

but at the same time there will be nothing pushing you to go on..

so i have to be a bit stronger than i need to..

okay..

it is no hard..

i can do it..

i am selfish..

i am obsessed..

i am sensitive..

i am suspicious..

when i have any of that feeling..

i will back off..

this saturday..

im going around by myself..

to places i want to go..

where no one will comment anything good or bad about what i want to do..

next wednesday..

i will go for movie by myself..

taiwan trip..

i will go by myself..

japan trip..

myself..

everywhere myself..

no strings attached..

i am gonna be so so so selfish from this point onward..

too burdening to care about how people feels..

sorry..