im just a friend

i think what makes me most powerless is when people tell me im just a friend..
i am nothing more..
hahahaha..
i know..
i know i am just a friend..
i know better than you do..
but i take this few words very seriously..
and super sensitive with words like this..
especially when you treat me like i am just a friend..
is it because that guy has a title of "boyfriend"..
that gave him more rights than me?
gave him more privileges than me?
i am not jealous..
really..
i am not..
to me..
boyfriend and girlfriend is not a title..
there is no guideline on what a boyfriend or a girlfriend should do..
just dont..
dont live up to people's expectations..
you will get tired eventually..
that is why i decided to stay single..
be alone..
i dont have time to reflect on these relationships from time to time..
it feel much better being alone and single..
its good to have someone next to you..
other than that?
i cant think of what is so good in being in a relationship..
i dont really wanna care anymore..
whatever..
no more advice will be given from me..
if you never ever gonna care..
or try to force yourself to be a "girlfriend"..
dont you feel tired?
i am tired..
very tired watching you trying so hard..
you might feel mad if you heard these words from me?
i do rather be real than being all those people around you and him..
cant they tell?
cant they feel?
you and him are just not meant for each other..
my most honest opinion..
hate me if you want..
at least i stay true to you..