monster

no..
i am not a monster..

recently..
i have trouble going to sleep..
or even have uninterrupted sleep..

i always wake up during my sleep every night..

i might even have depression nowadays..
it might sounds like a joke..
but you will never understand what someone else is going thru..

i just dont feel like myself anymore..
like a monster is inside me..
and i cant even remember who am i anymore..
i do things that i dont like..
do things that i tell myself not to do..

i dont know myself anymore..
haih..

sounded exaggerate?
you dont even know me right?
the very me..

i need to breath..
breath the air of freedom sometimes..

i need more time for myself..
more space for myself..

:'(