Struggling

you will never know how lonely i am..
you will never know..

there are so many thoughts that has been going on in my mind recently..
i enjoy being alone..
but i am always suffering from loneliness..

alone is where you can be by yourself but you know that you still have friends out there for you..
but recently..
loneliness has become like a darkness that has been eating me from inside..

its like when i look around..
i cant find someone that i can talk with..
people that i thought who are my best friends arent there too..

i am not complaining..
i am just telling the truth to myself..
probably i just dont have many who really cares about me..
i am not a fun person..
not a popular one too..
am a boring guy..

someone you can have or have not in your life..
i am that kind of people..

so much negativity now..
hahahaha..

humans relationship sure is a hard thing to understand..

when it is time to say goodbye..
i will say it without regret..

i am not a good guy to begin with..
if you think you know me..
you are wrong..
i dont even know myself :)