Exhausted

hello..
i am abit lazy today..
hahaha..

i am quite angry with myself today..
quite disappointed too..

everytime i get angry at something else..
i am most angry with myself..
i told myself not to get angry anymore..
but still..
sometimes..
hahahahaha..

i know being the nicest person wont do you any good..
it sounds like impossible too..
but i just wanna hold on to my own principle..

i wanna be that person that i wanna be..
maybe you will ask me stop dreaming..
maybe i should..

i will listen to you..
really..
tell you one thing..
it is definitely not easy for me to listen to someone and do what they say..
but you are different from the rest..
you are that a little bit extra special to me..
hahahahaha..

i need to recharge myself..
how?
i dont know..
road trip by myself?
sounds good..
but will it ever happen?
not with my current situation..
sad and pity life..
wont be too long till i have freedom..
you will never understand..