NCC or Freddy?

so..

why this post?

hahaha..

i have been thinking to write about this for some time already..

i guess most of my friends know me as NCC or CC ba?

not many know that i have another english name which is Freddy..

hahaha..

only my family, relatives and a handful of close friends in Malaysia know about it..

i started using Freddy after i arrived in Melbourne and only in work..

i still introduce myself as CC in uni..

guess i love CC more than Freddy?

hahaha..

for me..

CC sounds more "free"?

like i dont need to hide anything and can just be myself without listening to anyone else..

its like i enjoy the name CC and enjoy being CC like how i want to be..

hahaha..

understand?

CC sounds more friendly too..

to me it is..

hehehe..

since i am not someone who is friendly..

i guess a friendly name is better?

Freddy sounds nice also lar..

it means benevolent ruler..

which is a good name too..

but i just prefer CC more..

hahaha..

felt like Freddy make me become another person which is different from CC..

understand? >.<

i dont even know why am i writing this post..

hahaha..

this is so weird anyway..

i am just a boy trying to find his own world in his own way..

i dont mind being alone..

i might or might not be lonely..

it all depends on myself..

Freddy does sounds like it has lots of responsibility as it associates with what families think of me as well as this is the name i use in workplace..

CC is a name where everyone thinks i am abit dumb..

abit nice..

abit friendly..

it bears no responsibility except to myself..

sounds immature?

just pretend i am..

i probably am..

when will i be able to meet that person that will make me change?

that will make me discover my motivation?

i am not gonna wait anymore..

i will still live my live even if that person will never appears,,

hehehe..

be it CC or Freddy..

i am who i am..

the one and only..