Tired of this and that

hey..
yo..
its me again..
hahahaha..

i am so sick of living like this already..
so tired of this and that..

i dont wanna put blame on anyone..
probably its my problem if i dont communicate with other people..
probably its my problem if i dont speak out for myself sometimes..
probably..
its my problem..

i never want anyone to understand me..
i dont need anyone to understand me..
i am who i am..
why do you need to know what i think?
why do you need me to communicate with you?
i only talk to people i enjoy talking to..
that is my only habit..
it doesnt matter who you are..
the feeling of wanting to talk to you is important..
if i want to talk..
i will talk..

you will never know about this because this is the only place i will put everything in here..
you want to know how i think?
probably when one day you can no longer find me anymore..
i will show you this blog..

i rather keep everything by myself..
really..
shoulder all those weight..
because i know..
words are the most powerful weapon..
especially when it comes out from my mouth..
i will tear up everything with words..
when i am not happy..
when i am angry..
when i am upset..
like i said..
it doesnt matter who you are..
i will say what i want to say..

i am just not that person that you think you know..
because i am just not that person that i think i am..

trust me..
one day when im gone..
you wont even hear a thing from me..
because its my life..

my life..