18/12/2015

18/12/2015

Hot Day..
Friday..
just another day..

so busy at work..
like i have never been so busy before..
7 days a week is possible to finish all those stuff..
but i dont have that mental capacity to keep going..
haih..

i have to ask my aunt that if i can go for a one day trip with my friends or not..
we plan to go Great Ocean Road on 1st of Jan..
hahaha..
it would be awesome if we can go..
i might drive there too..
hahahaha..

please let that happen..
like i said before..
create more memories before its too late..
looks like i need to love myself..
love live more..
before time flies too fast that i can only live with regret..

christmas is coming..
means i will need to work extra extra hard already..
i never have holiday de lar..
hahahaha..
poor kid..
吃得苦中苦，方为人上人？

i prefer to slack sometimes and have a little bit of rest..
hahaha..

was preparing christmas card yesterday and sent out some today already..
who else did i miss out?
feel quite lazy at times but still send them to some important people..
hahaha..
it might be late again for them to receive in Malaysia..
hehehe..

one more semester to go..
8 more months to go..
just 8 more months..
this few years here..
i have never feel like i am here to study..
no happiness..
it is so hard for me to appreciate everything that my family is trying to do for me..
i dont know how to appreciate..
i need a life..
my own life..
not a life that is decided by them..
by adults..

i really need a life..
i crave for freedom..
not being controlled all the time..
i feel so weak at this moment..

i must not give up..
i am strong..
i shall not falter..
i shall not give in..
i will disappear from everyone for a while after i graduate..
live without expectation..
live without being controlled..
i am not sorry for any decisions made..
i am who i am..
i just wanna be who i really am..
i have not changed..
its just that you have never see the real me..