Complicated

just wanna find a place to put those things in..
this blog..
my only place to put in everything for now..
haha..

so what is it again today?
hahaha..
today is the her wedding day..

i knew about this few days ago already..
but didnt tell anyone..
and there are also people that didnt dare to tell me as well..
hahaha..
thanks for caring about how i feel..
im okay..

it just feels weird..
hmm..
complicated?
hahaha..

just complicated..
hahaha..
less than 3 months ago..
still my gf..
and today..
someone else's wife..
hahaha..

i now truly believe how time can change someone or something in such short period of time..
i truly wish her happiness..
i give my blessings..
i am happy for her..
i am honest to myself..

but i feel sad when her colleague/friend told me that she has changed..
i know i might not be the reason she changed..
but still..

it looks like i will always be on the good side of the people that i care har..
hahaha..
i have to wake up to the reality that i have one lesser friend now..
one that i really cared..
it is time for me to look forward and continue my life without looking back at it anymore..

it taught me things that i never knew..
it taught me things that i should be aware of..
it taught me things that i should know..

okay lar..
this should be my last post about her already..
i promise myself..

i really dont have feelings towards her anymore..
this i am sure..
but i dont know what is that i cant let go..
so i will let everything go..
everything..

i will have my own happiness in the future..
lets keep going :)