loser

loser?
nice song..
from big bang..
hahaha..

i dont actually feel like a loser..
but i just love that song..
love their songs..
i can feel everything in there even though i dont understand..
but i did look for the meaning of the songs..

the world is a beautiful place..
really beautiful..
everything changes everyday..
this is one thing that will never change in this world..
hahahaha..
amazing isn't it..

really have to be thankful for everything that has happened..
everyone that have appeared in my life..
every single one of them..

i want to start to love myself more..
i want to treat myself better from now on..
how?

i don't know..
teach me..
help me..
guide me..

all i want is just to be able to smile and laugh everyday..
wanna be carefree..
wanna be happy with someone else..
wanna listen to songs..
wanna sing songs..
i wanna be myself..
that is all i ever asked for..
don't try to change me..
don't try to control me..
i will be better only at the right time and for the right reason for the right person..
other than that..
i am probably just like this..

this is so confusing..
what am i talking about?
hahahaha..
looks like im sleepy already..
goodnight :)

wish everyone that i care and love be happy and healthy always! :)