Angry

i have never been so angry with myself before..
never..
i am so angry with myself since yesterday..

reason?
i dont know..
i just suddenly feel so upset with myself..
frustrated..
its like i have been doing wrong things all this while and i found out about that and got so angry..
that kind of feeling..

i really dont know why i will think like that..
probably i didnt do as what i promised myself..
maybe..
maybe that is the reason..

i should have keep my distance..
walk away..
treat myself better..
maybe i should..

i am angry with how i behaved towards someone's teasing..
really angry..
i dont wanna be that kind of guy..
but i still have to put on a smiling and laughing face in front of others..

i respect her..
i am..
i will..
always will..

i dont want to hear bad things about her..
its not like i care now..
but i used to care..
i cant hate her..
i dont hate her..
i am not angry with her..
i am not..
never will..

as long as she is happy..
everything is fine with me..
probably this is the way i show my feeling?

anyway..
i moved on i guess?
maybe..
whatever..

i am so angry with myself that i still keep thinking about her..
why?
why do i still have to be like this?
i need to let it go..
otherwise it will always be there to haunt me..

please forgive me..
forgive myself..
i am so tired..
i should only trust myself..
i wont trust someone else so easily anymore..
i am my own problem..

i hate this love song..