bad guy

hehehe..
there is a chinese song which is called "bad guy" that i really like..
this song has been really suitable for me for the past few years..

not gonna tell you why..
maybe its time to keep more things for myself..
hahaha..

there is also another song that can really be used in almost every situation that i was in before..
hahahaha..
like every single time..
actually not that many times..
3 times..
but still..
that 3 times is the ones that i really put my heart in..
and its always this 2 songs that remind about those things the most..
hahaha..

she is leaving tonight already..
hope she has a really good trip back home..
enjoy her holiday..
good luck for what she needs to do..
it has been so long since she is back there..
i will miss her..
shhhhhh..
keep this as a secret..
dont let her know..
i am gonna feel so shy..
hahahaha..
really..

lucky for her that i wont be able to disturb her anymore for 1 month..
hehe..
and now i dont have anymore excuse to go around to buy food or drinks anymore..
>.<
just hoping the best for her..
best friend :)

im still tired..
but better..?
need more time for myself..
i am still overthinking from time to time..
i need a listener..
really need one..

drowning in absolute loneliness :(