unproductive day

today was really so unproductive..
unbelievable!!

didnt do anything at all today..
haih..

i was wondering today..
with the way i am now..
do i really deserve to has friend with me?
like you know..
i am selfish..
i am really a bad friend in any way you can think of..
i guess..
i am just like that har?

do i feel bad?
of course i do..

i am inconsiderate har..

that is why i said it is hard when we dont see the picture from the same angle..
what you see and what i see is different..
how can we still talk?
you are not trying to understand me..
and i am not trying to listen to you..

if you dont even know what is our problem..
then what you think our problem is?

i tried to be the one who start the talk..
but i always get a cold shoulder from you..
what else do you expect from me?
see you being so nice with your other friends..
and me?
only when you have no one?
no..
even when you have no one..
you wont even think of me..

it is not easy for me to trust somebody..
but when i lost the trust..
i lost interest..
remember how i dont talk to certain people even if i see them everyday?
i was not joking..
really..
two of you always see it as me being the one at fault..
but you didnt see things from your blind spot..
that is why i am tired..
sorry..