20/06/2016

yesterday was a fun day..
lazy to talked about it yesterday..
so here i go today..
went out for yumcha at tim ho wan..
dont really like it..
still prefer malaysian style..
hahahaha..
then i went and walked around by myself.
then meet up with 2 of my best friends in melbourne..
went to hunky dory to have fish and chips..
so so good..
hahahaha..
then we went back to office to plan for our korea trip..
and then i sent my friend back home and took his car..
hahahaha..
cause i need the car for today..

today was quite a relax day for me..
except that i got stuck in the traffic..
went to pick up a friend..
then we went for our high tea..
we booked it few months back..
when we were still close..
it was a good high tea session..
a little bit too much even for me to finish them all..
but good to experience lar..
then we went to fitzroy garden to have a walk..
walking under the rain..
it was suppose to be one of the things i want to do with my future wife..
but since i already decided to be single forever..
i guess i can tick the list off for that after today..
it was fun..
for me..

it takes a friend a lot of courage to tell you the truth..
because they know exactly how much the truth can hurt..

i think this will probably be the last time we hangout..
i am really tired..
no one needs to be nice to another person..
i was nice to her because i wanted to..
im not blaming her for anything..
but i just need to let go of what i think i need to let go..
she has her own happiness..
i should go for mine too..
sometimes i wish i dont need to pretend..
sometimes i wish i am not that sensitive..
sometimes i wish to not know too much..
sometimes i wish to act like i dont see anything..
but i want to be honest to myself now..
i want to be more loyal to my own heart and mind..
time flies..
we know each other for more than 3 years already..
sometimes i think i am cold blooded..
sometimes i think i am mean..
sometimes i think i am cruel..
but there are principles that i follow..
if i cant accept certain things..
certain behaviours..
certain actions..
no matter how close you are to me..
i will still cut off our ties..
sorry?
no..
i am not sorry..
if you dont feel sorry..
why do i need to be sorry..
anyway..
i am expendable..
i am nothing in your life..
this is what i feel every single time..
every single time..
you made me feel that way..
i am tired of feeling this way anymore..

i did not lie when i said you were very important to me..
i did not lie when i said i really cared about you..
you still are..
i still am..
i cant go any further than this..
you were a nice friend..

thank you for the memories..
i wish you all the best..
i wish you good luck..
i wish you be happy always in your life..
but this is as far as we go..
love yourself more in the future..