self slap

we ask because we care..
but sometimes not asking is a form of caring too..

feel a lot better now..
hahahaha..
i dont know why..
but just feel better..

after realising how different are we..
after realising how much i really care..
after realising that we are not possible..
i felt relieve..
hahahaha..
at least i am not making excuses for myself..
not lying to people to have my own happiness..
i have grow up from that stage..
until today..
i still think i am not a bad guy..
really..
can even be better..
only if she knows how to handle me correctly..

what is meant to be will be..
but dont regret of anything that is your decision..
if you feel regret after you done something..
shut up and move on..
its your decision..
if you think you dont do it..
and you wont feel regret..
just dont do it..
dont act like you care..

we are really different..
we changed..
but..
i changed for what i believe..
i changed for what i want..
but you..
you changed because of others' influence..
even though we changed..
we are still different..

one day when you think of me..
when you need me..
i just want you to know..
i will always be here for you..
only if you remember..
hahahahaha..
which i think you will never..
at the end of your life..
then you will realise who treats you the truest..
who is willing to be nice to you unconditionally..
and you will realise its your lost..