life

you only get one life..
its actually your duty to live it as fully as possible..

cant believe i actually studied for 2 whole days..
yesterday and today..
but still not enough i think..
cause there are still so many other topics..
hahahaha..
have to speed up abit..
hmm..

slowly slowly...
i feel really annoyed with her..
more and more..
just dont want to talk to her anymore..
haih..
but i feel bad..
so i still reply her all the time..
can i stop doing this without feeling bad?
well..
its not like i giving her false hope..
at least i told her i am not going to get into any relationship..
not with her..
not with anyone else..
im such a jerk aye..

i have a really bad memory..
but why does it seems like i cant forget everything about her..
one year ago..
during this time..
this is where we start to get closer..
haih..
time flies..
she was..
and will always be the best..
its not that i want to compare anyone with her..
but the feelings i got..
and i had..
i dont think i will ever feel them again..
its not that anyone can replace anyone..
its wrong to think that way..
but there isnt anyone who can occupy my heart as much as her..
i dont like her anymore..
honest..
but i cant feel what i felt to her to anyone else..
sigh..
hahahahaha..
i love to laugh at myself huh..